This is me! Take me or leave me.

Coworkers

2012-01-18T08:27:00.002-05:00

Sometimes the people you work with are just co-workers and sometimes you are lucky enough to work with people who become real friends. I'm so glad that I worked with such great people when I was in my 20's and that we have either kept in touch over the years or we've had the chance to reconnect. I still think about the times we would get together outside of work and I think that is a true testament to the friendship.

I'm going to Disney World!

2012-01-09T10:06:00.002-05:00

So, 2011 was a big year for me. I paid off my debt. All of my loans and my car were paid off.

Several years back, we decided that once we paid it all off, we would plan a trip to Disney. And not a "tight budget" trip either, but a nice big celebration. We wanted to stay at a Deluxe Resort and enjoy the Deluxe Dining Plan. It was all just a dream for so long. But that dream is becoming a reality.

One week ago, I booked our dream trip to WDW. We are booked at the Yacht Club Resort for 7 nights. And no, we won't be going back into debt to pay for it. It will be completely paid for before we even get on the plane.

I'm thinking I should do a Disney blog while we are there and maybe this one will become more Disney-fied over the next several months. The trip isn't until October, but if you've ever been to Disney, you know that the planning can take months. And the planning is half the fun.

We need to plan where we are going to eat and when. And we need to figure out which parks to visit each day, which will affect or be affected by where to eat. And since we are going over Halloween, we have to plan for Mickey's Not So Scary Halloween Party. And then, of course, we have to decide if we want to wear a costume for the party. So many things to think about.

So who wants to come with me on this Magic Carpet Ride of Disney Planning?

Charging forward!

2012-01-05T15:55:00.003-05:00

First post of the New Year! Yes, I know I'm a little slow, but that's life.

I've been in a bit of a funk through the holidays. Not that they were bad, but because of this air cast on my leg, it's kept me from being able to do my regular workouts and I started gaining weight. Because you know I didn't improve my eating over the holidays. Oh no. I ate what I wanted and when there isn't any exercise to go along with it, the weight comes charging back.

Why does it take weeks to lose 5 pounds, but a mere 5 seconds to put it back on? And it brings friends?

So this year's Biggest Loser is all about "No Excuses", so I guess I can't make excuses either. I should have found alternate exercises to do that didn't involve my leg. Instead, I fell into a funk and basically gave up. But, over the weekend, I bought myself a little stool so now I can sit in my living room and use my weights. I'm going to have fabulous arms! Can you imagine what they would be like if I'd started this weeks ago when I first injured the foot? I'd be giving the First Lady a run for her money. Ok, that might be a slight exaggeration, but still, they would have looked better than they do.

And I am happy to report that when I weighed in at Weight Watchers today, I was down 2 pounds. That's right, 2 whole pounds. Amazing! So now I need to stick with the weights and I'm going to start some light step aerobics since I only need to wear the cast for another week and a half. I'll go slow and only for a short time, but even that little bit should help.

Well that and I've stopped eating junk like it's my last meal.

Holiday Rush!

2011-12-22T15:01:00.001-05:00

So what has been happening? I guess I should have looked at my last post to see what I talked about last time. Did I mention my air cast? I think I did. Oh yes. My last post was Dec. 8th and since I injured myself on Dec. 6th, I must have mentioned it.

Well, since tearing the ligaments in my ankle, I haven't been able to work out and it is killing me. Besides that fact that it's really starting to show on the scale. I have just been gaining weight and I'm ready to cry. I need to find something that I can do to burn some of these calories. And if probably wouldn't hurt if I really started to watch what I put in my mouth. I know it's the holidays, but combine that with a bad leg and it's just one giant excuse. So I need to do something now. No excuses!!

I hope everyone has a Merry Christmas! Or a Happy Hannukah!! And of course, a wonderful New Year!!!

Injured Reserve

2011-12-08T11:07:00.002-05:00

Life has been cruising along at a nice pace. Work was going well. Friends and family were fantastic. Christmas shopping was almost done. Cards sent. Gifts wrapped. I was really in the spirit. And then, crash!

Ok, that might be a slight exaggeration. (My husband says I always exaggerate.) Anyway, Tuesday night, walking from the car to the house and my ankle just gave out on me and I fell to the ground. Originally I thought the worst of it was my hand that I used to brace myself and the scrap on my left shin, but the pain there was over and done in no time. But my right foot was really sore to walk on. It's hard to explain the pain, but it wasn't at the ankle, but a little further down on the top of the foot.

I started looking online, and of course, posted on Facebook for opinions wondering if I might have a broken bone in my foot. After about 2 hours, when it wasn't feeling any better, I decided we should probably visit the ER and get some x-rays. I must say that there wasn't a single George Clooney or Noah Wylie in the place. But everyone at the Norwood Hospital was pretty nice and I was in and out of there a lot faster than I'd expected.

And thankfully, nothing was broken. The doctor (Dr. Geller...I didn't ask if his first name was Ross, but I wanted to) said that it could be a bad sprain or torn ligaments. He gave me an air cast, recommended I use crutches and take ibuprophin for the pain.

Less than 48 hours later and I have to say, almost no pain now. Just a twinge or an ache when I move a certain way. If anything, the muscles in my leg ache more than the foot. I move at a snails pace and I can't work out at all. And with just 2 classes left, I've had to give up on my belly dancing. But again, nothing is broken, so I should heal just fine and will be dancing again before you know it.

Holiday season is upon us!

2011-11-30T08:41:00.002-05:00

I am really enjoying the holidays this year and it's not even December yet. I'm just about done with my shopping and I'm pleased with what I've gotten everyone. My bank account looks sad, but it will soon be replenished and it felt good knowing that I had the money to spend. Paying off those debts felt so good and it continues to make me happy.

If there is one thing I could teach the young people today, it's not to get caught up in credit card debt. Spend within your means and don't borrow against the future. Ideally, you should be able to pay off your credit card each month, or only use it for emergencies - like car repairs or other unforseen things.

Life is so much more enjoyable when you don't have to worry about how your going to pay the bills.

Happy Thanksgiving!

2011-11-23T08:45:00.002-05:00

Just wanted to wish all my friends and family and anyone else reading this a very Happy Thanksgiving. I hope you all have a lot to be thankful for this year!!

Shop til you drop!

2011-11-20T08:35:00.004-05:00

I love holiday shopping. I try not to start too early though because once I find that perfect gift for someone, I just really want to give it to them right away. I did some shopping yesterday and I did find the perfect gift for one friend. I can't tell you what it is though, because what if she reads this? That would ruin the surprise.

My family says I always find the perfect gifts. I don't know why I have such success. There isn't some secret that I could tell you. I just see something and I just know it's right. But that doesn't mean I always find the perfect gift. Sometimes I do struggle on what to get someone. Probably more often then not. But if feels so good when I find the right one.

I hope everyone finds at least one absolutely perfect gift this year, but even if you don't, I hope that you find joy in just giving and sharing with family and friends.

(I wrote this on Sunday, but couldn't get it to post.)

Lead or Follow? Neither!

2011-11-17T10:03:00.002-05:00

My mother used to tell us to be leaders, not followers. And I used to think that was really good advice, but I've come to realize that I am not a leader. But I'm also not a follower. I don't want to be either one. I am just me. I am who I am and I don't want people to follow me. I want them to walk beside me. I can look at all my true friends and see that each is unique and special in their own way and that is what makes us friends.

To be a leader, you need followers. Yes, there are leaders who do good things and their followers are the people who support them. But I think that in the world of friendships, there shouldn't be a leader and followers. The leader in a friendship is really just a bully and the followers are just hangers on. That's not real friendship.

The resurection

2011-11-15T12:54:00.002-05:00

With encouragement from my friend Crissy, I am resurecting my blog and taking it in different directions. I will probably still talk about my weight loss journey and still hope to be fit and healthy sooner rather than later, this will also be about my life in general and just how I am feeling about different things.

Lately, things have been, how shall I put this...perhaps CRAZY is a good word. Today in particular, I feel free and alive and I want to dance, which is really nuts because with what some people have said about me and my family in the past week and a half, I should probably just be really angry. But I'm not. Maybe that's a sign of growth.

Today I actually feel free after learning what someone who I once considered a friend had to say about me. Crazy, right?

I know that I am a good person. I love doing things for my friends and family just because. I like making them happy. It just makes me feel good. I don't ask for anything in return, but sure, inside I hope for good things to come my way too...and maybe that's just a hug from my niece and nephew or some kind words or a thank you, but even just feeling good because I did it is a plus.

I'm not perfect. I know it, but I don't apologize for who I am. I get angry and impatient and sure, sometimes I probably think I'm better than someone else, but under it all, I still think I'm a good person.

For now I'm going to end this by reposting what I said on Facebook, which apparently made an impact on a few people as they shared it on their pages too (and that made me feel really good) and what led Chrissy to encourage me to re-start this Blog.

I do things for people because I want to, not because I have to. It's who I am. But when you come to expect things and/or use underhanded tactics to make sure you come out on top, I no longer want to do anything for you. I will continue to do things for those who appreciate my generosity.

Love to all my friends and family!!!

Where have I been?

2011-02-08T08:49:00.002-05:00

I have really been lazy about posting, and lazy in working out. I think this weather is really getting to me. Thankfully, the last 2 weeks, my WW weigh-ins have been for losses - only 0.4 each week, but a loss is a loss. And yesterday, the weather was decent enough that I could get out and walk at lunchtime. Yay me!

Not sure there will be much workout today. It's raining/snowing, so I probably won't get out at lunch and we are doing a secret shopper at the movie theater tonight, so I don't think I'll be home in time to workout before bed. We shall see.

Slacking...

2011-01-24T11:34:00.002-05:00

Friday night was our office holiday party. I probably ate more than I should but not as much as I could have. So overall, not a bad evening. The party was at the ICA and the food was just ok, nothing great. The excitement of the evening came when the fire alarms went off midway through dinner and we all had to evacuate into the cold Boston evening. And the ICA is right on the waterfront, so it was even colder. So glad we had the car keys and could run to the car.

Saturday and Sunday, I worked job #2. I was so exhausted last night that I could barely move, but I did do 30 minutes of step on the Wii Fit.

This morning, up at 5:06 am and it is a balmy -2 degrees outside. Needless to say, I won't be walking at lunch today. I did do my 10 minutes of Wii Fit running and I plan on running again tonight, after the WW meeting.

Speaking of WW. I'm not expecting anything good tonight. We shall see. With all the hours I have been working at the store, (5 out of 7 days last week) and the holiday party on Friday night, there wasn't much time for working out. And this week doesn't look to be much better. Work tomorrow, Friday and Saturday and I am on-call for Wednesday and Thursday. They really need to hire more people that can work an evening shift because I can't be working every day of the week at both jobs. It was less stressful during the holidays than it is now. The money is good (well, not good as in I'm making a huge salary, but good to make some extra), but burnout is not.

No Workout Friday

2011-01-21T08:39:00.002-05:00

I have this clock that is supposed to be controlled by some place in Colorado. I'm guessing it is via satellite or something. Every now and then it goes a little screwy. Today was one of those days. I remember waking up around 4:15 and going to the bathroom. I climbed back into bed to go back to sleep and then my husband was bouncing around again, so I was yelling at him for waking me up. I roll over and look at my clock and it says 3:43. HUH? So I look at his clock and it says 5:43. I was supposed to be up at 5:07 so I could work out and head off to work.

Needless to say, no workout today because of the clock. And of course, we had snow overnight (and it is still snowing now at almost 9am) so I had to clean off the car and make that rather unpleasant drive to the train station. It was quite slick, but I made it and now I'm at the office. The office where we have delayed opening until 10:00 am.

And tonight is our holiday party at the ICA, so there won't be any working out at home tonight either. Oh well. I did run for 20 minutes last night, so at least I got that in.

Quick post!

2011-01-18T15:57:00.002-05:00

I know it has been a few days, but life gets busy and blogging just isn't the first thing on my mind.

Had a WW meeting last night and when I weighed in, I was only down 0.2. Yes, it's still down - hooray, but I wanted it to be much more. I did have sushi for lunch and it filled me up quite a bit and I was still feeling full when I went to the meeting, so it is very possible that that is what caused the number to be less than I wanted it to be. Hopefully next week's number will make up for it.

I really need to get more veggies in my diet, but there are only so many things that I like during the winter and I prefer to eat my veggies fresh and raw, which is not always easy with winter veggies. I need some new ideas.

Whole Foods help!

2011-01-14T16:15:00.002-05:00

I just entered a contest to win a Healthy Pantry Makeover from Whole Foods. This would be amazing for me if I won.

I would love to shop at Whole Foods all the time, but I just can't fit it in the budget right now. When we were in AZ last summer, we visiting the Scottsdale store several times, even having lunch there one day. Yes, I said we had lunch at Whole Foods. It was fantastic!

I know that I would really benefit from a Whole Foods Healthy Pantry Makeover. Wish me luck!!

Slacking

2011-01-14T08:58:00.002-05:00

I seem to be slacking off this week. I think the blizzard in the middle of the week threw me off. I need to stop letting these little blips in the radar stop me from keeping focused.

I was home all day on Wednesday because of the snow and while I did get out and shovel, so that was some activity, I got lazy and didn't really workout like I should. I had plenty of time during the day to use the Wii Fit, but I just didn't do it.

So it's time to re-focus...again.

Cover Girl

2011-01-13T11:50:00.002-05:00

A little off-topic, but I wanted to share. And beauty is part of getting fit and fabulous, so maybe it's not off-topic.

I've been a Covergirl for as long as I have been wearing makeup. How about you? Isn't Covergirl the first makeup all teens wear? I still wear Covergirl today because nothing gives me the coverage and the colors like the classic Covergirl.

Yesterday's Stats

2011-01-11T08:40:00.003-05:00

Weight Watchers last night. I was down 0.8. Current weight is 195.6. I really hope that I continue on this downward slide.

Steps: 17,795

Workouts:
Wii Fit Running - 10 minutes (morning)
Wii Fit Step - 30 minutes
Wii Fit Running - 20 minutes (last night)

Overall, not a bad day. I tracked all my food too and while I did dip into my weekly/activity points, I wasn't over by too much and I made some good choices yesterday.

Weekend Wipeout?

2011-01-10T10:37:00.003-05:00

Ok, not exactly a Wipeout, but it's so much harder to stick to a healthy eating plan on the weekends. Eating out is tough, although I'm sure I made better choices than I normally would. And when I'm home for long periods of time, I find myself munching...but I have to say, that I munched a lot less this weekend than I usually do - very good for me!!

I did some workouts too, but I'm sure I could have done more. Face it, we just get lazy!

I need to really focus on the weekends and not let myself think of it as a "vacation" from eating healthy and working out.

Weight Watchers tonight, so we will see what the scale says. I expect it to be down a little.

I have discovered that with the new Points Plus plan, the WW muffins which used to be 3 pts are now 5 pts. So needless to say, I won't be getting those muffins anymore. I don't see that as a good use of 5 points. I'd much rather have my Fiber Plus bars at 3 points each. And now they have a new flavor: caramel coconut fudge. It tastes just like a Girl Scout Somoa cookie (did I spell that right?), but they are so much better for me than the cookies. Not sure I want to tell the hubby though because then he'll eat all my fiber bars. Think I'd better stock up on a few more boxes.

Yesterday's Stats

2011-01-07T07:53:00.001-05:00

Steps: 12,888

Workout: 30 minutes of step on Wii Fit.

Not exactly a blockbuster, but at least I worked out. And the Wii Fit says I was down 0.7 this morning. I'll take it.

Goal for today: 30 minutes of step and at least 20 minutes running.

It is Friday, so that's bagel day at work. One thing I can never pass up is Bagel Day!

Happy Friday!

2011-01-07T07:48:00.002-05:00

It's the first Friday of the new year and I think I've done okay in my quest for a healthier me. I've tracked pretty much everything and I've worked out every day so far. I need to make sure I work out over the weekend too. No slacking! We don't get the weekends off.

I'm on call for work tonight and I'm hoping I don't have to go in so I can run tonight. I know, who would have thought I'd ever say I wanted to run? But, if I really want to do the Run to Home Plate in May, I need to get running.

Have you heard of the Run to Home Plate? It is a 9k road race in Boston to raise money to support our local military personnel who are returning from Iraq and Afghanistan. Having family in the military and knowing how stressful it can be to serve overseas makes this an important event to me. And in addition to that, at the end of the race, you get to run across home plate at Fenway Park and as everyone knows, I am a huge baseball fan and the chance to touch home plate at Fenway is just beyond anything I ever thought possible.

I do need to raise $1,000 for the race, so I'm hoping everyone will support me in this...and push me to train so I can do it. A 9k is just over 5 miles. I've never run a full 5k yet (3.1 miles), so I don't know about a 9k, but I have to focus on it. Wish me luck!!

Unhealthy Dieting

2011-01-06T10:34:00.002-05:00

It saddens me to see people who try all these fad diets.

Someone I know, who is a little tiny thing (very petite and her waist is about the size of my calf) is doing one of these fads. She says she's making healthy choices, but then she says that she's doing these diet supplement shakes as part of the plan. How is that healthy? It's not teaching you how to eat properly. You need to be able to eat in the real world. She lost weight last week and this week she says she wants to lose 3 lbs. That scares me.

It saddens me that we are an intelligent society and with all of the techonology out there, people are still expecting miracles when it comes to weight loss. We must eat healthier. We need to stop putting chemicals in our bodies. And we need to realize that a shake isn't going to help us to maintain a weight loss or get us on a healthier diet plan. Those shakes might help us lose weight fast, but you'll put it back on even faster once you go back to eating real food again. And what will be the long term effect of those shakes? What exactly are they doing to our insides?

I'm not going to claim to be the healthiest eater, but I'm working on it. One day at a time. There is so much good, healthy food out there. Let's stop killing ourselves with chemicals and fads!

Yesterday's Stats

2011-01-06T08:48:00.002-05:00

Steps: 16,242

Workout: 10 minutes of Wii Fit Running in the morning.

Wii Fit Weigh-in: down, I think it was 0.4.

Food, glorious Food!

2011-01-06T08:38:00.002-05:00

The hardest thing about getting healthy is changing what I eat. The fact is, I love food! I love to cook. I love to eat. I love to read food magazines, watch food tv shows and I'm always looking at recipes. And while I know there are plenty of healthy foods and recipes out there, sometimes I just want a big ole piece of chocolate cake or an ice cream sundae or fried clams. So moderation is the key! I can't eat all of those things in the same day and probably not even in the same week, but once in a while is ok. I just keep telling myself that.

Last night, I worked my second job, so there was no time to do a workout. But I am on my feet at the 2nd job and walking around a good deal, so I ended that day with over 16,000 steps. Yay me!

And I weighed in on my Wii Fit again today. It said I was down 0.4, which is good. As long as a see a DOWN, I will be happy!

Yesterday's Numbers

2011-01-05T09:00:00.001-05:00

Steps: 16,877

Workouts: 30 minutes Wii Fit Step Aerobics and 20 minutes Wii Fit Running = 50 minutes.

And according to the Wii Fit, I'm down 1.1 lbs.

Biggest Loser - Season 11

2011-01-05T08:37:00.003-05:00

I am a big fan of Biggest Loser. I think the show is a real inspiration and has been a real help to people who need to lose weight in order to save their lives. Season 11 started last night and, of course, I was watching - and working out while I watched. I can honestly say that the show was what inspired me to make some changes in my life and start losing weight. Granted, I wasn't as heavy as most of these contestants on the show and I am happy to report that I no longer qualify (and haven't for some time) to even be on the show.

I know there are many naysayers out there. They think the show is unrealistic and that while these folks may lose weight on the show, they all gain it back. But that isn't true. Yes, when they are on the ranch, they are under strict supervision. They only have access to certain foods and they work out, on average, for 8 hours a day. Most of us can't do that. But what they learn on the ranch is very valuable to helping them maintain a healthy lifestyle and that is the key. They learn about proper nutrition and they learn how to work out properly. And while some do regain the weight, the majority have not. The majority have changed their lives and they are living healthier and happier. That is what the show does for people.

As I said, Biggest Loser has inspired me and I don't work out 8 hours a day. I don't even average 1 hour a day, but I do work out more than ever before and I feel better for it. Last night, during the show, I worked out for 50 minutes. 30 minutes of step aerobics and 20 minutes running with my Wii Fit. Thank you Biggest Loser for inspiring me.

Yesterday's Stats

2011-01-04T09:44:00.001-05:00

WW Weigh-in: 196.4 lbs

Steps: 19,248

Workout: 10 minutes Wii Fit running in the morning. 30 minutes of Wii Fit Step Aerobics at night.

A letter to my fat!

2011-01-04T09:30:00.002-05:00

Dear 59.4 lbs:

We've been together for so long, but the time has come for us to part ways. I just don't love you anymore. I'm not sure I ever did.

It's not you. It's me. I grew comfortable with you, but I never really loved you. You became my security blanket. I could hide behind you and never really face the world. But I can't do that anymore. I need to break out of my shell and make some changes. I know it won't be easy, but I have to do this.

I hope you understand.

Sincerely,

Skinny Me

New Year - New Focus

2011-01-04T09:11:00.002-05:00

Well...in case there was any doubt, I didn't make it to my 50 by 40. And sadly, I'm probably at a higher weight now than I was when I started this blog last year. The good news - the gain was minimal, only a couple pounds. I'll have to go back to the first post and take a look to see exactly.

So I'm starting Fresh! New Year - New Blog - New Focus. And New Goals!!!

Wow - I didn't realize that I'd started this Blog in August 2009 and I was at 205lbs then. So I'm happy to report that I am not back at that. I'm currently at 196.4. I'm not happy with that and it's time to work on changing it.

Happy 2010!

2010-01-05T08:57:00.001-05:00

Well, I started off the New Year with a weigh-in yesterday where there was no weight change. I don't consider that to be a bad thing for 2 reasons: (1) I was half expecting a weight gain since the Wii Fit told me I was up and (2) the pants I bought 3 weeks ago, which were tight when I bought them, actually fit great. So all is good.

My big focus (aka resolution) for 2010 is food! I need to eat more veggies. I need fun and tasty ways to incorporate them into my diet. But I also want to try some new recipes. So I need to push myself to put together a meal plan each week. I need to sit down with recipes and maybe put them together into some sort of binder and then use these to build my grocery list. No more excuses. I love to cook and I love food and I want to lose this weight, so there's no reason for me not to do this.

Here's to big sucess for a smaller me in 2010!

New Year approaches

2009-12-30T08:36:00.002-05:00

So the New Year is just a few days away. I think my only resolution is something that I've been trying to do for a while now and that is to eat more fruits and vegetables. I am so bad about this, mostly because I'm terribly picky. I don't like canned veggies (and they really aren't that good for you), and really prefer fresh. But in the winter, there aren't a lot of really good fresh veggies out there.

I am taking suggestions on new recipes that I can make using veggies, but please avoid anything that uses beans or peas as I really can't stand those. Oh, and I don't like carrots either - except Carrot Cake and I don't think that qualifies for getting in my 5 fruit/veggie servings.

Hope everyone has a safe and happy holiday! See you in 2010!!

I'm so bad at this!

2009-12-22T10:41:00.002-05:00

Wow - didn't realize it had been so long since I posted. I need to get on this more often. Last night's weigh-in was a decent one. I was down 0.6 which brings my current weight to 192.8 lbs. That 200 mark is getting further and further away. I am happy about that.

I did have to go shopping over the weekend for more clothes. So glad the in-laws sent a check for Christmas so I could hit Kohl's for some new pants. One of the girls at work referred to my pants last week as "clown pants" because they were so big and baggy. I take that as a compliment. So now I'm happily wearing a size 14, and that's not a plus size, but a regular size 14. No more plus size stores for me. I think it will soon be time to cancel my Lane Bryant credit card because I won't be shopping there anymore.

Life is good!!

I'm not losing pounds, I'm giving them away, tossing them out.

2009-11-12T08:41:00.003-05:00

Down another 1.6 lbs this week, after being up .8 last week. So my current total weight is 197.2. I'm down 21.8 lbs since joining weight watchers and 7.8 lbs since I started this blog.

I've decided that I don't want to talk about it as a weight "loss", because really, I don't want to find these pounds ever again. So instead, I'm giving them away or throwing them away. I'm just plain getting rid of them. Never to be seen again.

I've set my next goal at 185lbs. My reward for that step is a Chamilia bracelet, the kind that you can add the beads to. I love them and have been wanting one for a while, so I think that's a good reward.

Wish me luck! I'd love to see 185 right after the holidays. Oh, and now I get to figure out Thanksgiving dinner because apparently my family is letting me handle it this year. Wonder how many things I can fool them with! You know, low fat and healthy versions of their favorite foods.

YUM!

Under 200

2009-10-29T08:39:00.002-04:00

Last night was a great weigh-in. Down 3.6 lbs to drop me to 198, which brought me below the 200 mark for the first time in I don't know how long.

Since starting this blog, that means I'm down 7lbs and since starting Weight Watchers, I'm now down 21.

Should be a great time to celebrate, but unfortunately, I'm dealing with some other stuff that just hit me like a ton of bricks yesterday and I just can't get excited. But, I'm going to do what I can to make sure that I stay on track with the weight loss and getting healthy. I need to do that for me even if everything else is in a spiral.

It may be time to go SHOPPING!

2009-10-27T08:42:00.002-04:00

The clothes are getting a bit too big. I really don't want to buy the "in between" sizes, but eventually my pants are going to fall down, so I think I really need to get some new clothes. It's gotten to the point where I can actually pull most of my pants off (jeans included) without having to unbutton them. This is good, no?

Yesterday, I was wearing a pair of pants to work and someone commented that they were very saggy in the butt. I think my butt is disappearing. It's ok, I don't want to find it. It's been following me around for years and I think it's time that it went off on it's own. Maybe find someone else to follow.

Tomorrow is the next weigh-in and if I drop below 200 tomorrow, then I'll be taking my $100 Macy's gift card out for a little trip to the mall on Saturday. I know some people would go for the "cheap" in-between clothes, but I want to show off a bit. And besides, this is essentially free since I got the gift card through MyPoints.

Have a great day everyone! Wish me luck for tomorrow.

Quick UPdate

2009-10-22T09:40:00.002-04:00

I was up 0.2 last night. I was not happy. And for some reason, the substitute WW leader told me I was up 0.4, which really irritated me. But when I looked at the computer printout of last night's weight, it was only up 0.2.

So my current weight is 201.6. So since I started this exciting Blog, I'm down 3.4lbs. (Although, since joining WW, I'm down 17.4 lbs.)

On the positive side, someone else did notice my weight loss today, so I have to be happy about that.

And last night, while watching Tuesday's DVR'd Biggest Loser, I was jogging and ran for 15 straight minutes. It's the first time I've gone that long. Later I did another 10 minutes. Maybe one of these days I'll be able to take my at home jogging out to the track and actually job a few laps.

One kind word can make a world of difference!

2009-10-21T08:45:00.003-04:00

Sometimes, all it takes is just one comment to change your mood. Lucky for me, there have been so many positive comments lately. Ok, so they're not just comments, but compliments.

This week, it was one of the girls at work who literally grabbed by arm to whisper "looking good girl." I think I was smiling for the rest of the day.

A few weeks ago, one of the attorneys that I work for said that I'm "disappearing".

I know that these few little words really made me feel good and they help keep me going. It makes me realize that even if I don't see big numbers dropping on the scale, I am making changes and people are noticing. So even though I'm still trying to love 50 lbs, I do realize that it's not just about the numbers. Or maybe it's all about the numbers. My clothes are getting smaller. That's a number. I'm losing inches. That's another number. Hopefully I'll live longer, lower my cholesterol and my blood pressure...all numbers. I guess it really is all about the numbers.

So tonight is the weigh-in and I have to admit, I am a little nervous. It's that time of month, so I could be retaining water and I did make a cheesecake over the weekend. I did make it for other people and have only had 2 small pieces myself, and may not have any more. (If I say that I definitely won't, then I'll just want it more so this way, it's a maybe and I won't feel quilty about it if I do. And besides, I've worked it into my points, so I'm not doing any real damage.)

I'm only 1.3 lbs from the 200 mark and while I'd really love to lose 1.5 this week to get below the line, I think I've resigned myself to something more like a .8 loss. Keep your fingers crossed for me!!

Weekly Weigh-in: Down 2.2

2009-10-15T08:26:00.002-04:00

And now the pounds are just melting off. Ok, so I think this just proves that actually following the points plan and tracking everything really does work. I have been almost anal about making sure I count things. Weight Watchers does work if you do it right and don't just try to fake it.

I think the combination of following the points plan religiously, my Sketchers Shape Ups and the fact the Wii running are really working for me. My clothes are getting to be so loose too. I really need to do some shopping.

I'm now only 1.3 lbs away from 200. (So for those who aren't so good at math, this puts my current weight at 201.3.) How exciting is that?

See, my plan is that once I'm below 200, I'll let myself really go shopping for some new clothes. I did order my $100 Macy's gift card from MyPoints last week too, so that is my incentive. Once I have that and get below the Mendoza line, I can go shopping. (If you don't know about MyPoints, please ask me. I'd be happy to refer you so you can get some great gift cards too.)

I was watching The Biggest Loser last night. (I work on Tuesdays, so we DVR it and watch on Wednesday.) And now I'm wracking my brain to figure out what happened that I was going to discuss here. Geesh...my mind is going! I don't know. I can tell you that that show really inspires me. It makes me get up and move. Usually I'm jogging in place while I watch and sometimes I get out my balance ball. Last night, I did both. I felt great!

Now I need to go over to WeightWatchers.com and log my weight and my dinner from last night.

203.6

2009-10-08T08:48:00.003-04:00

Finally, some real progress. Ok, so it's my own fault. I make excuses for weeks. Too much stress with everything that was going on in my life. Last week's weigh-in just really annoyed me and I decided that I really needed to start tracking again - and I mean really tracking.

So I did. I tracked as best as I could and ended up dropping 2.8 lbs. I haven't seen a loss like that since May. You have no idea how excited I was last night. So on my quest to lose 50, I've lost 1.4. Remember, I started at 205.

My first goal is to get under 200. I'm hoping that I can do that by Halloween.

My second goal is to get under 185. I'd like to see that by Christmas.

My third goal is to weigh less than my husband. I'm thinking that might be the goal for the spring.

We shall see. One step at a time. One day at a time. One bite at a time. Now it's time to go eat!!

2009-10-07T09:06:00.002-04:00

I'm probably one of the worst bloggers ever. I'm not nearly as entertaining as I'd like to be and I forget to blog for days on end. Why would anyone want to read such drivel? And if that's not bad enough, I'm not even making any headway on my goal of losing 50lbs. I think I actually weight more than when I started this. How sad is that?

Let's talk shoes instead. I think I'm finally, really starting to feel the impact of these Sketchers ShapeUps. My upper thighs are a bit sore - in a good way. So I assume that means they're working. I have been walking in them quite a bit and going for walks on my lunch break at least three times a week. Hopefully they'll firm up my butt and I'll have those buns of steel that I've been coveting for the last 20+ years. Time will tell.

Check in tomorrow for the big weigh in. Please God, let the scale show a big drop. Maybe I shouldn't eat today. Oh wait - too late - I'm halfway through my breakfast already.

$%%@^) $#%!#_)% &**&_)@34

2009-10-01T08:25:00.002-04:00

Aarrgghhh! Up 1 lb yesterday. This is just so frustrating. I don't overeat. I know I don't, so I don't understand why I'm not having any luck at WW and why I haven't lost anything since May.

At the meeting last night, I saw one of the other members walk in with a bottle of Diet Coke and it got me thinking. First, from everything I've read, diet soda is even worse for you than regular soda. While it doesn't have the sugar that regular soda does, it has so many chemicals that it will eat the paint off a car. Imagine what that is doing to your insides? ICK!

I've also heard stories about people who have dropped huge amounts of weight when they stopped drinking soda. Well I quit drinking soda almost 2 years ago and I never saw any significant drop in weight. Any weight I did lose was attributed to the overall change in my diet and exercise. Why can't I lose 20 lbs just by giving up soda? And it's not like I replaced it with something else. I drink water all day long. Seriously. Plain water most of the time, but other times it's unsweetened tea. It's just so frustrating.

And while I know I'm not counting points religiously, I'm right around where I should be. I'm not going way over or way under even. And I even earn 3-4 extra points on average per day because of my walking. This is just so frustrating.

So today I measured my waist. I want to see if there is a change there that is maybe not being reflected on the scale. Today my waist measured 39 1/4 inches. (Yep, I did it again. I broke the taboo and now I've not only posted my weight and my age online - but my waist size! I know there are people everywhere who are going into shock over this.)

So now we get to track measurements too. That doesn't help my 50 by 40 plan, but maybe it will make me feel better if I see some actual changes in my body.

Food - glorious food!

2009-09-30T08:23:00.002-04:00

I love food! I have no problem admitting that. I swear, I think about food all day long. There are times when I'm full and I just think "mmm, that would taste good right now." Even if I'm not hungry.

Now while I say that, I don't think I overeat. I'm not one to sit with a whole bag of chips or cookies or an entire 1.75 liter (cause they don't make half gallons anymore) bucket o' ice cream. But sometimes, I'm full from one thing, but my taste buds start dancing and wanting something else. It's terrible.

I get to work in the morning and I haven't even eaten breakfast yet and I'm already thinking about what I can have for lunch or dinner. It's still only September and I'm thinking about what I'm going to make for Thanksgiving. I'm thinking about what kinds of goodies I can make to share with friends and family.

I love food!

Life is what happens when you're making plans.

2009-09-26T08:25:00.002-04:00

My Dad always said that when I was growing up. It always bugged me, but it's true. My plan had been to focus on losing weight and getting in shape before my 40th birthday and then...my Mom got sick and we found out it was cancer. So now I'm stressed and focused on keeping her spirits up and working 2 jobs and trying to pay the bills...and I'm just not eating the way I should and I'm not getting in the workouts that I'd wanted to. It's just not easy.

The good news is that at least I'm not gaining anything. And for the last three days, someone has said that I look like I've really lost a lot. The truth is, the numbers on the scale haven't really changed and I haven't lost anything since May.

But it really feels good when people are telling me that they see a difference. Just that little bit of reinforcement helps.

So...try to say something nice to someone today. It will make you both feel good.

OT - It's not Rocket Science

2009-09-24T13:58:00.002-04:00

I should start another blog just about all the people I see throughout the day. Now that would be entertaining.

I went out at lunch to buy a card for my niece's birthday. She'll be 16 next week. I'm not sure how that happened exactly (yes, I understand she was born in 1993, which was 16 years ago, but I can't figure out where those 16 years went), but I swear it was just last week that I was 16.

Anyway, I go to this great little shop, Copley Flair and wind up spending $25 on cards. What started as 1 ended up being 6 and 2 of them were extra special. Of course, when I was there I realized I needed a birthday card for my Mom too. Her birthday is 2 days after my niece's.

So nothing exciting happened at the card store or on the walk back to my office, but then I walk in the front door and head to the security screener. It's just like the airport. You take everything out of your pockets, put it in the little tray, put the tray and any bags you have on the belt and it goes through the scanner. The only difference is, you don't take off your shoes. Sounds easy enough, right? Apparently not.

I walk in and there is a guy standing there emptying his pockets. I'm not sure exactly how he was able to walk with all the stuff he was pulling out of his pockets. I think the security guard's eyes were going to pop out of his head with how many times this guy stuck his hand back in and pulled something else out. And he is totally oblivious to the line forming behind him. Finally he finishes and starts to walk away, at which point the guard had to call him back and tell him to put the tray on the belt or it wasn't going anywhere. Geesh dude! Then it's off through the people screener. Thankfully, he didn't set that off.

I go through and I'm happy to say, I've never set the thing off. Not once. I reach around the guy and grab my purse. He's now got to spend 15 minutes putting all the junk back in his pockets. I hop on an elevator and get back up to my office. I stop and talk to the receptionist and a few minutes later, in walks the guy from downstairs - Mr. 40lb pants. Oh geesh! Sure am glad he wasn't coming to see me or one of my people.

So that was today's little adventuce.

Down an even teenier, tinier bit.

2009-09-24T09:18:00.001-04:00

Down 0.2 this week. Oh well. Stress and PMS will affect weight loss. I'm shooting for a big number next week.

And I'm hoping to be a little more amusing in my posts.

Weigh-In Day

2009-09-23T08:31:00.002-04:00

I'm still not expecting big things at tonight's weigh-in, but we'll see. Check back here tomorrow morning for the result.

In the meantime, I guess I should talk about my Skechers Shape Ups. Have you heard of them? They are sneakers that are supposed to improve circulation, correct your posture, and give you a work out when you are walking. (For more info, check out the Skechers website). I've had mine for about a week now and I do notice a difference. I'm definitely standing up straighter. I can feel it, but I can also see it when I'm on my Wii Fit. For anyone who has ever used the Wii Fit, when you do your Body Test and it checks your balance, I've never been good at getting it in the middle - not even close. But this past week, I'm almost dead center every time. I'm also feeling some tightening in my leg and butt muscles. So they appear to be working as they should. Of course, it takes work on my part too. They aren't miracle shoes. I do need to walk correctly in order for them to do their job, but I'm learning to do that.

I'll keep you posted over the coming weeks on how they are doing, especially since my walk for JDRF (www.jdrf.org - still time to join my team or make a donation - PLEASE!!!!) is only a few weeks away now and I plan on wearing them then too.

The shoes retail at Skechers for around $110-120. My store (shameless plug - Off Broadway Shoes) sells them too for $99.90. Since I get a discount, I was able to save a few $$ too, which is always a bonus.

Stress!!

2009-09-22T08:31:00.002-04:00

I've been disappointed in my lack of weight loss, but after talking to my WW leader, she commended me on being able to maintain given all the stress I've been under.

People think my life is a bit stressful anyway and they don't know how I deal with working 2 jobs, but I've gotten accustomed to that. But now with Mom's surgeries, cancer diagnosis and impending chemo/radiation - the stress level just skyrocketed. I know that Mom is the one going through all of this, but I feel an added burden because I'm the only one of her kids who lives locally. She doesn't have any other family or friends (except Dad) who can be there for her and Dad doesn't exactly handle this kind of thing well. He can be an added stress. But I can't always be there. I live locally, but locally is 45 minutes away. And I have to work. I can't afford to be out for any length of time and I really can't afford to quit my 2nd job right now either. I've thought about it but it's just not possible.

So, is the stress keeping me from losing weight? Quite possibly. But I've been pushing myself to get out and walk at lunch several times a week. I think I need it for my mental health too. Just to escape. There are days that I just want to cry for hours - but so far I haven't even found the time to do that.

Losing 50 by 40 is looking like a very daunting task. If I can't start to put up some real loss numbers soon, I suspect that I'm not going to make it. We may have to change the title to 25 by 40.

Down a teeny, tiny bit.

2009-09-17T08:50:00.001-04:00

Ok, just a quick post because I need to get to work. Weigh-in was last night and I was down .4 lbs. Not much, but it's down.

I've also been walking at lunch all week and I bought the new Skechers Shape-ups, which I'll post more about later or tomorrow.

Quick Friday night post

2009-09-11T20:40:00.002-04:00

It's Friday and counting WW points tends to get a little lost on Friday's. I can't say no to the bagels that the office provides for us. Never going to happen. But it's my treat. Lunch, I went to my favorite place in Boston - Flour Bakery. You have got to try it. I always get the roast beef sandwich. They make their own bread and it's piled high with roast beef, arugala or some other greens, tomatoes, the horseradish sauce and crispy onions. It's just so good! And I just couldn't help myself, I had to get one of their oh so yummy chocolate cupcakes. (It's all Julie's fault. She got one when we went there together and I tried it and now I'm addicted.)

Dinner was Panera. I know, bad, eating out for all 3 meals. But dinner was supposed to be at home, except that I got a call from the secret shopper place that I do stuff for and they needed me to do a dinner shop at Panera. So I did, but I did some research on their website for the healthier options and I actually only ate half anyway - so better than I could have been.

Ok, it's date night with the hubby, which means tv on the couch - so I should go spend some time with him. Catch you sometime over the weekend!

Plus One!

2009-09-10T08:13:00.004-04:00

206. Yep, I gained a pound. I won't make excuses, but I know that part of that is because I probably should have visited the little girl's room before the weigh-in. But, if I'd been paying attention and doing what I was supposed to do the last week or so, I wouldn't have had any gain. I probably shouldn't have had those cupcakes last week, or the cake and ice cream, or the fried clams and clam cakes. Yep, as you can see, I didn't eat the healthiest. But it was a stressful week and I just didn't put in the effort.

So this is a new week and I have to start fresh. I do have a splurge planned for this weekend, but that's what those extra 35 points are for. And maybe if I plan ahead, I'll be less likely to mess up on regular days. That's my thought process anyway. We'll have to see how that works out.

I am going to walk at lunch today. And with the cooler temps, my plan is to walk at least 3 days a week during lunch. And I need to start walking at home when I can too. I should commit to at least Monday night. My husband did say that he's going to walk with me, but we'll see how that goes. He always says he will but then when I ask him to join me, he says he's too tired or some other excuse. So we will see!

Someone suggested to me that I try South Beach, and while I appreciate suggestions, tips, recipes, etc., I have to say that I don't think it's going to work for me. I tried it a few years back and couldn't keep up with it. I personally don't believe in cutting out any food group. I have to be realistic. I'm going to be eating for the rest of my life. Food is always going to be a big part of my life. And I love bread. So I know that I can't cut it out, even for a short period of time. I have cut back on bread and I'm very picky about the bread that I eat now - opting for whole grains most of the time, I know I'll never be able to give it up. I also love pasta. Why do you think I married an Italian? Love, you say...yeah, love of pasta and Italian food. (I'm kidding, but believe me, I do get excited when we're planning a visit with his family, especially an event that involves food. It's a good thing they live 200 miles away or I'd be gaining 50 by 40 instead of losing it.

Today's goals: load up on fruits and veggies. Walking! Let's see if I can hit 15,000+ steps today. Working at the store tonight should help get those extra steps.

Weigh-In Day

2009-09-09T08:26:00.002-04:00

It's Wednesday, so you know what that means - Weight Watchers meeting tonight and my first weigh-in since I started the quest for 50 by 40. I'm hoping for a loss this week, but not expecting that it will be too much because of all the stress this past week. I'm especially watching what I eat today though and hoping that this helps me get back on track.

I did walk up to Borders at lunch yesterday and with all the walking at the store last night, I was over 12,000 steps. I can't remember the miles the came out to, but it gave me 3 activity points.

For those who don't know much about WW, you get a certain number of points each day. Everything you eat has a points value. You need to eat your alloted points each day. You also get 35 bonus points for the week that you can use any way you'd like or not use them at all. And then you can earn more points by exercising. I get 25 points per day base. I will be honest, I'm not the best at keeping track of my points. I try, but sometimes I guesstimate. I should use the online tools more, but I don't really have the time. And when we eat out on a Friday night, I almost never know how many points are in that meal. It's a lot of work, and my goal is to push myself to the point where I'm counting the points religiously. Wish me luck!

With that said, I guess I should go log into WeightWatchers.com and log my food for today. That would be a good place to start on this goal to count my points.

How do you spell "bedonkadonk"?

2009-09-08T08:29:00.000-04:00

Sunday morning I did go walking at the track. I walked from the house to the school, which is about 1/2 mile, then 4 laps around the track (1 mile) and back home again. It felt good. My plan is to increase the number of laps every week or so and add in some actual running on the track too - sort of like interval training.

After I got home from my walk and showered/changed, it was off to do the a little shopping.

First stop: Kohl's. I had some Kohl's cash that my MIL had given to me and I'd seen this cute pair of pants when we were there a few weeks ago, so I went to check them out. We can wear black denim at the shoe store now, so I thought I'd look for a pair. And this pair I'd seen, I couldn't tell the first time if they were black or blue. After taking a closer look, I'd describe them as "ink blue". Very dark, but not black.

I found some other black jeans and tried them on. It wasn't pretty. Basically, none of them are made for a woman with JLo's butt. Ok, so I'm not as skinny as JLo anyway, but when I get skinny, I'm sure people will confuse me for her. (Ok, so my pale pasty skin might be another dead giveaway, but a girl can draem.) Anyway, I swear, there is a good 6 inches between my waist and my hiney. That's a lot of real estate. And because of this, there was a gap the size of the Grand Canyon between my waist and the waistband of all these jeans I tried on. Now I do own jeans, so I know there are some out there that will fit my larger than life derriere, I just have to find them.

Next stop - the grocery store, where I bought way too many snacks. I can control myself most of the time, but I really shouldn't be left home alone. Yesterday wasn't the best day when it came to eating. I tend to snack a lot more when I'm home.

Speaking of the grocery store, what is with the produce these days? It's awful. It takes an hour to find an edible piece of fruit. Seriously, I think I'm going to start splurging and just get my produce at Whole Foods. I know I'll be paying more, but at least I won't be throwing it away two days later because it's just rotten.

Yesterday I did go walking at the track again. Again, walked to and from and did 4 laps. But this time, I actually ran 1/4 of a lap during my middle two laps. Sure, it's not a lot, but for a girl who doesn't run even run for the bathroom, that was a marathon. Maybe if I run more, my backside will fall off. Again, a girl can dream.

Stress and frustration - and it's a Saturday! No fair!

2009-09-05T18:10:00.000-04:00

Lots of stress lately with Mom's surgery. We did bring her home today, so that's a relief.

Frustration is coming from other areas with drama I shouldn't have to be dealing with and instead of the problem easily being resolved, as it should have been, it's blowing up to be a bigger mess because the person who should be taking care of it is blaming the wrong person! AARRGGHH!

I got on the Wii Fit this morning and it said I was down 2lbs from yesterday. That's the first time in a long time that it's actually said down a decent amount. We'll have to wait until Wednesday night to see how that translates in WW weight.

I haven't gone to walk the track yet. We were out late last night at a taping of Wheel of Fortune in Boston (actually they taped 2 shows). We weren't on the show. Just in the audience. But it was pretty cool. These episodes will air in mid-November. And today I spent the day with my parents. Picked Dad up at 10am, which meant leaving my house shortly after 9am, and then drove into Boston to pick up Mom at the hospital. That was an adventure. Only my sisters and BIL will be able to really understand because none of my friends have really seen my Dad and how he gets when he has no patience, is frustrated and just has to make his point. I try to ignore it and then feel like I need to apologize to whoever he has gone off on. My Mom gets embarassed. We finally left the hospital around 12:30 and then the long drive back to their house, grab some lunch, then waited at the house with Mom until Dad got back from his grocery store and CVS run. Just got home around 5:30 and I am BEAT!

So I'd say there isn't any chance I'm going to go for a walk tonight. So I'll have to get out there tomorrow and Monday since I promised at least 2 trips to the track.

Friday, September 4 - Labor Day Weekend

2009-09-04T08:29:00.000-04:00

I wear a step counter daily and as I mentioned yesterday, I planned on getting out an walking at lunch - which I did. (Yay me!) I also walked uptown to catch the Silverline over to the hospital and then walked to the hospital from the Silverline stop, then reversed the whole trip. So a decent amount of walking. If I remember correctly, I did over 13,000 steps yesterday. For some reason 6 1/2 miles sticks in my head. I wrote it down at home.

I'm not sure what today holds. I did just eat my bagel and fruit for breakfast, but have no idea what lunch or dinner will bring today. It is Friday. We have plans to catch the taping of Wheel of Fortune in Boston after work tonight, but there is also a possibility that the doctor will be sending Mom home today. If they release her, we'll pick her up after work and bring her home. Either way, I should get some walking in after work, whether it's from the office to the convention center or from the office to the hospital.

It is also supposed to be a perfect weekend in my opinion. Temps in the 70's. So I'm hoping to get out to the track. Let's shoot for at least twice over the 3 days.

Hope you all have a great Labor Day weekend!

Thursday, September 3 - no weigh-in

2009-09-03T08:32:00.000-04:00

I visited Mom at BMC last night and by the time I got home, it was too late to get over to WW to weigh-in, so you'll just have to remain in suspense until next week to find out how much I've lost. Yes, I'm saying "lost" and not "gained" because I plan on staying positive about losing weight from now on. (Let's see how long that lasts.)

I think I need to start taking notes during the day. Yesterday I walked up to Borders and was thinking about today's post and had some really good ideas of things to post and now, I haven't got a clue what those were. Guess I'll have to wing it today.

First, let me just say that Mom seems to be doing well. She was out of a bed and in a chair when I got there. She was just Mom. She did wince a little when she moved, but that's to be expected after surgery. She said she wasn't really in pain, but felt a bit of pressure and she seemed to be breathing just fine. (She had part of a lung removed, so the ability to breathe normally is important.) So for those who were wondering, so far she's doing well. I'll be heading back over there after work today.

Now back to my weight loss / get in shape plan. It's supposed to be a gorgeous day today, so I plan on getting out and walking again at lunch. This will be a real walk, not a walk to Borders. I'll be walking along the Rose Kennedy Greenway. It's a great place to walk in Boston. I have to say, the Big Dig took forever, but at least the end result with the Greenway is gorgeous. I think my goal right now is to walk at least 3 days per week, so don't let me slack off on that. I'm also hoping that with the cooler weather coming and hopefully the other areas of my life calming down again, that I'll be able to get out at night to walk over to the school and walk on the track again.

I need to get walking sooner rather than later since that JDRF Walk is coming up. (Would love to have some of you join me at the walk or I'd love to take some $$ off your hands in the form of a donation to JDRF.) I was hoping to actually run part of it too, but we'll see. If I don't get back to the track soon, I'm afraid that may not happen.

Ok, looks like it's time to get to work. Catch you all again tomorrow!

September 2, 2009 - WW Weigh-in??

2009-09-02T08:15:00.000-04:00

Well, it's Wednesday which means I'm supposed to be weighing in at Weight Watchers tonight. But, I'm heading over to Boston Medical Center to visit my Mom after work and may not get home in time to head over to weigh in. We will see.

I'm not expecting any big weight loss this week because I have been stressed and haven't really been tracking what I'm eating. And there hasn't really been any exercise. But today at lunch, I am planning on walking. It won't be the power walk that I used to do because I want to head up to Borders so I can pick up some books & magazines to bring over to Mom tonight. I will get in more walking on my way over to the hospital too because there isn't an easy public transportation option to get over there. But it's going to be a perfect day for walking.

Breakfast today will be my english muffin and hard boiled egg again. Then I have a nectarine for my morning snack. Lunch is going to be turkey with avocado and tomato on a deli flat. If you haven't tried Deli Flats they are great. They are from Pepperidge Farm and they are round, thin little roll like things. They are only 1 point and they make the perfect sandwich. Arnold makes something similar, but I haven't tried those yet.

I did get some good news last night, but unfortunately, I can't share it just yet. So you'll all just have to wait and keep reading to find out what it is. It has nothing to do with my weight loss plans, other than it should relieve some stress.

Have a great day everyone!

Tuesday, September 1

2009-09-01T07:43:00.000-04:00

I'm still very tired and could have used a few more hours of sleep. My head is mush! So I decided I needed a hot chocolate today to try and wake me up a bit. I go into the kitchen at work to make my hot chocolate and I spot the cake boxes from yesterday. The last Monday of every month, we have cake and ice cream to celebrate the birthdays from that month. It's a great treat, in my opinion, but probably not so great when trying to lose weight. So I decide that chocolate cake sounds really good right now with my hot chocolate, so yep, I ate a piece. Not a big piece, but a reasonable sized piece. And it tasted great! I'm still pretty friggin' tired, but I enjoyed the cake and this hot chocolate is pretty good too.

I have to say that I'm actually glad that cooler temperatures are here. I need to get out and start walking again. So tomorrow I lunch, I promise I'll be out there walking. I'm also glad that September is here because it means my brother-in-law will be home from Iraq soon and that makes me very very happy! And in November, they're coming home to visit for Thanksgiving. I can not wait!!

This post is going to be all over the place. I told you I'm tired, so I'm just expounding on different thoughts that come into my head.

I love food. I won't deny that. My life pretty much centers around food. I love to cook. I love to eat. I love reading food magazines and I love watching anything about food on television. You've probably heard the saying: Nothing tastes as good as thin feels. Well I'll tell you, I've never been thin, but I sure have found lots of very tasty things in my life and I'm not sure that thin is going to feel better than those things taste. I just don't believe it.

I do love cooking. I just don't have a big enough kitchen. Nor do I have enough time these days. With working 2 jobs, it's very hard to fit in time to really cook. I'm thinking about taking a healthy cooking class, but again, where will I find the time? One of my other goals these days is to get my debt paid off. Once that happens, I'll be quitting job #2. And I'm hoping that once the debt is paid off, we'll be able to afford to buy a place of our own. I want a house with a huge kitchen. I don't really care about any of the other rooms. Just the kitchen! And I want to have a nice big patio/deck/terrace right off the kitchen so I can have a nice grill set up out there for outdoor cooking and dining. Ahhh...if only you could see the picture in my head. The place would be amazing and then I could have dinner parties and bbq's and just friends over. Oh, I guess I'd need to get some local friends too.

But first things first...no more cake for breakfast. That has to be the last time I do that. It was good, but will it be worth it? I don't know. I may not make it to my WW weigh-in tomorrow. With Mom in the hospital, I may be visiting her after work so I may miss my meeting. I know, you're all waiting for me to post my weekly weight, but you may have to remain in suspense for another week.

Monday, August 31 - Exhaustion sets in.

2009-08-31T08:44:00.001-04:00

Up before 4:30 this morning to drive Mom & Dad into the hospital for Mom's surgery. This is going to be an exhausting day and just not sure what is on hand for lunch or dinner. I'll probably be working throuhg lunch in order to leave early today and not sure what time I'll be home for dinner, or what to have since I haven't been home since 9:30 yesterday morning.

Last night I did make sure I got at least 1 veggie in. I was spending the night down in Plymouth and thought about a fried clam plate, but knew I needed something a little healthier. So I went with a surf & turf caeser salad. Steak tips and scallops on top of a cesaer salad. It wasn't bad and since they put the dressing on the side because I was doing takeout, I saved calories there too.

See you tomorrow! Time to get to work. Man, am I exhausted!

Sunday, August 30, 2009

2009-08-30T09:26:00.000-04:00

Just a real quick post before I head off to work.

I joined Weight Watchers back in March and since then I have lost 14 lbs total. I had lost 16.6 between March and May, but gained a bit back while on vacation and have had trouble losing all summer. So with fall creeping in, I'm going to get back on track and focused!

Ok, off to work!

Saturday, August 29

2009-08-29T09:42:00.000-04:00

So here we are at the start of a very busy weekend. I have to work job #2 this afternoon and won't be home until late and then I'm working all day tomorrow. After work, I'm heading down to spend the night near my parents so that I can drive them into Boston for my Mom's surgery first thing Monday morning.

As you can probably guess, that means this is going to be a very stressful couple of days. I am making breakfast right now. I need a good one to keep me going today. I know I could do better in the "healthy" department, but I haven't had time to hit the grocery store and it's not terrible. I am having bacon, eggs (I sprayed the pan with non-stick spray - no fat) and a lightly grilled bagel (no butter).

As for the bacon, I'm sorry, but unless someone finds me an amazingly delicious turkey bacon, I'm sticking with the real stuff. I tried the Butterball and I just don't like the stuff. I love Butterball turkey, but the turkey bacon just doesn't do it for me.

You may be wondering why I never mention what I'm drinking. That's because I drink water all day long. The only other thing I drink is tea - either unsweetened or with a little bit of Splenda.

My plan for the rest of the day is to bring some fruits and veggies with me to work. I have an orange to bring. And I was thinking that I'd take the cucumber, tomato and onion that I have and chop those up and mix them together into something of a rough salsa. I also have some tortilla's that I might bake up to make my own tortilla chips and then use those as my lunch/dinner. The bagel/egg/bacon breakfast will get me through a good chunk of the day so I won't really need to eat before I get to work and then I only get 1/2 hour break for dinner, so I thought that was a good option. I will also grab a package of peanut butter crackers to take with me so I'll have a protein option should I need it.

Back to what I mentioned in my intro post a couple days ago, where I mentioned my age and my weight. Shocking, I know. Well, I have two mottos right now. They are:

(1) I'm not going on a diet. I'm changing my diet. I'm doing this one day at a time and starting off making small challenges. Next week, when things hopefully calm down, and the weather cools a bit, I'm planning on getting out and walking again.

(2) If I wanted to stop having birthdays, I'd have to die and I'm not ready to die yet so I plan to celebrate every single one of them. I want 40 to be spectacular. A new beginning. And I plan to celebrate in a BIG way while being smaller (and healthier) than I've ever been.

Check in with me again on Monday when I update you on exactly how the weekend worked out. So glad that next weekend, I have 3 whole days off!!! Not working at either job. That is my reward for all the stresses this week!!

Friday, August 28

2009-08-28T08:19:00.000-04:00

Yesterday started out ok when it came to food. I had my regular english muffin and hard boiled egg breakfast. Mid-morning snack was granola clusters and a pluot. (If you don't know what a pluot is, it's a cross between a plum and an apricot - pretty good.) Lunch was veggies - cucumbers, orange bell pepper and avocado. That was good. Then the dilemma of what to have for dinner. This wouldn't really be a problem except that I was going from job 1 right to job 2, and didn't really have anything at home that I could take with me. And I still have something like 12 points for the day. Well...I ended up hitting the McDonald's drive-thru.

This is where my problem lies. When I work both jobs, I don't have much time for dinner, so it's usually dinner on the run. But I need to start planning something and bringing it with me. Not only will I eat healthier, but I should save some money too and we all know that is important, especially since my second goal is to pay off all my debt.

Today is Friday and Friday means bagels, pastries and fruit at work. I stay away from the pastries, but I just know I can't stay away from the bagels. So it's a bagel w/honey walnut spread (reduced fat) and fruit. Plus I brought a hard-boiled egg so I could get in my protein.

This is going to be a rough weekend for me. I'm working pretty much all day tomorrow and all day Sunday. Then Sunday night I'm heading to a hotel near my parents because very early Monday morning I have to drive my Mom into Boston for surgery. This schedule means it will be really difficult to get any grocery shopping and menu planning done. But I'm going to do my best to eat healthy and get in some exercise. At least working means I'll be on my feet and walking around the store a lot.

Sorry if this blog is starting off so dull. I'm much more entertaining than this, but I'm tired and a bit stressed. I promise it will get better.

50 by 40

2009-08-27T08:46:00.000-04:00

So setting this up was a lot easier than I thought. Let's hope that I can figure out how to log back in tomorrow and update it.

Anyway, just a quick intro so I can get to work at my paying job. You're probably wondering about the 50 by 40. To put it simply, I want to lose 50 lbs by the time I am 40. And that 40 is approaching very quickly. In fact, it's only 11 months away. 11 months from yesterday actually. And speaking of yesterday...that was Weight Watchers weigh-in day so my starting weight on my quest to lose 50 by 40 is 205lbs. That's right. I posted my age and my weight online in one simple paragraph! People are probably gasping everywhere. "OH MY!! What is she thinking?" But I hope some people are saying "You go girl!!"

Why a blog about my weight? Well, I think I need someone to hold me accountable, and if I put it in black and white and out there for the world to see, there can be no denying it. Now it's time to have breakfast. How about some bacon, eggs, french toast, hash browns...YUM! Nope, it's an english muffin with a little butter and a hard boiled egg. Comes out to 5 points on WW. I get 25 points for the day so 5 for breakfast is decent.

So welcome to my blog and my get healthy and lose weight journey!